A normal life as a normal boy

I'm really surprised how long I survived this time.
Everything looked like I would die soon. And even if I didn't become an adult, it was probably my most interesting life so far.

I was born in some carriage. My mother didn't survive the birth.
Since my father wasn't with her and my mom was some noble, the people decided to kidnap me. They feared they would be made responsible for the death of my mother anyway.

They thought about requesting money from the princess, who seemed to be the most powerful person of the nobility, but they quickly ditched their plan, since this would only cause unwanted attention. Instead they wanted to get rid of me as quickly as possible.
First they wanted to kill me.
Then they wanted to abandon me in some forest.
But in the end they decided to sell me to some slave trader, which probably wasn't a legit business in this area.

They also didn't really know what to do with me, I was just a normal boy.
The owner thought about abusing me for fun, since he thought raising me would be too expensive. But before he went through with his plan, a family decided to adopt me.

They knew I was the lost son of a noble woman who had died a few months ago.
I'm still not sure why they knew.

But after I lived with them for a few months, they already were able to persuade the general public.
Even if I still was so young, not even a year old, they still wanted me to talk.
I wondered if this was just some kind of scheme or if they actually knew I was able to.
But in the end I told everybody the story while using the fewest amount of words possible.

Most of the time I just said the words "Mom", "Noble", "Carriage" and "Death". Maybe I said a few more words when they asked.
People thought I must be smart, since I'm the son of a wise noble.
And they also thought I was traumatized. Else I wouldn't remember any details from my early childhood.

After a while, my parents went to the princess. She and her people immediately realized, I'm really a noble myself. But it seemed some people were annoyed that I came back.
I was thrown into prison, where I only got simple food once per day.
Any normal child wouldn't have survived this treatment.
I also didn't see my parents again.

After many days, I was able to leave the prison cell again, and my actual father started raising me in the castle town.
It seemed like they couldn't just kill me after the general public knew I was a noble.
But after I was freed, it didn't take long until the people and the nobles forgot about me.

So I mostly grew up as a normal boy in the castle town with my father.
My father seemed to be a busy man, but now he stayed with me at home most of the time.
The castle town was a rural town surrounded by walls, similar to some old towns I visited in Germany in my first life.

My life was mostly silent. But I always felt the threat of something weird happening again. They probably didn't want some noble around, who would take away their positions.

I was talking a lot to my father about this.
He realized quickly that I was a smart boy.
But he never explained any details.
He only told me not to worry. Everything would work out in the end.

So the next years, I just explored the town and found some friends.
I told nobody that I was some noble. I didn't want to be dragged into this again.
I got some money to buy groceries, and when I came back home, I spent the time with my father.
He didn't talk much, but he seemed like a smart person.
I leared about this new culture, and I started to believe everything would work out.
But I still thought, I might just die again one day, just like always.

When I was around ten years old, my father secretly invited the future princess.
She was around my age and still a little smaller than me.
But she already looked almost like an adult.
She was still pretty cute compared to an adult and had a mischevious smirk. But it was obvious that she would one day look like one of these women you see on every TV guide. Just one of these women, who is supposed to look sexy, but since each of these women looks like this, they just felt generic.

If I'd put in some effort, I would probably have been able to become a prince, and I would have gotten the chance to have sex with a girl, who isn't a goblin.
To be honest, I found her very sexy in that age.
But I just didn't believe I'd still be interested in her as she grew older. Even if she'd probably still look way above average.
Most of the women in this world didn't look as beautiful as in my original life.

But in the end, it just didn't work out. The princess wasn't romantically interested in me.
Because of that my father seemed desperate.
He still told me everything is going to work out for me, but he didn't seem convinced.

I felt like I didn't just lose the chance to become the prince and to get a good looking wife, but also the chance to turn this into a longer life.
I knew this life would be over soon.

But I was still able to continue my life.
My father didn't have much time for me anymore, but he usually was still back by the evening. Only sometimes he wasn't there for one or two nights, but he always left a note.

But not long ago, he just disappeared without leaving a note.
Since he didn't come back, I was really concerned what was going on.
After a week without him, I entered his room and looked through his stuff.
I saw a block lying around with some text on it.

It said "Looks like even being your father didn't help. Let's meet again in another life".
That's it? So does he know about me?
Or does he have memories of his past life himself?
At least he probably won't come back.
And I'll probably just die myself soon.

Maybe my father was actually my goblin girlfriend?
If she had died not long after me, she would probably be at the age of my father right now.

Or was it my friend from my last life? But this would mean that I'm not reborn right away. It would probably even mean, the time to get reborn is random.

I just tried to live on, but only a few days after I found that note I was invited into the palace.
And inviting me is just my way to say that a few soldiers dragged me with them into the palace.

I thought I'd be imprisoned again or killed immediately.
Instead I got a room and started a normal life as a noble.
I regularly got delicious food brought into my room.
And I was allowed to walk around freely in the palace.
But except for a few servants, I didn't really get to know anyone. It's a huge palace with only a few residents.

After living there for only a few days, I didn't feel that good after a delicious meal.
While walking through some corridor I suddenly felt very dizzy and fell to the ground.
Then everything went black. They obviously poisoned me.
My consciousness is still there, so when I wake up again, I'll be reborn another time.

It's pretty annoying. I just started to feel hopeful for this life, and then it got taken away from me again.
I already cautiously thought they really accepted me as a noble now.

Why do I even have to go through all these lifes?
Did somebody want me to learn something?
Did I approach these lifes in the wrong way?
Should I have done something different?

Am I just doomed to live and die forever, while keeping my memories?
Or maybe these were just failed tries?

My father definitely knew something. Why didn't he just tell me what this is all about?
I guess I'll just have to wait.